I am lost and broken..
Its like I'm in a  wind
so strong
my tears like the falling rain.
Cannot see thru them
cannot hear any helpful voices.
The night is black...
No light in sight.
Lightning strikes and the thunder rolls.
Sending terror to my bones.
My heart aches and I loose control.
I run
I hide
I try to push my feelings down inside.
Mud stained
cut and bloody
shaking
...the rain falls..
This is how I feel inside. 

At night the demons I hide

come out to defy

To haunt and destroy..

Alone I lay awake in worry.

They play with my heart,

make it race and cry out.

Screw with my mind,

make me doubt every inch I feel inside.

Cover me in cold sweat.

Chills and feverish

until panic is all that's left.

"Run Run" they whisper

"You will never survive"

I struggle and fight to lock them back down inside.

Cover the taunts in locks and chains

bury them and

deny

deny

deny

-I am fine-

In the Mirror ..

I see my mother's beauty and strength.

I see my father's smart, kind blue eyes and stubborn jaw.

I see my dark thoughts and black circles beneath my eyes.

I see the stress behind a worried, crinkled brow.

I see the smile my mother gave, that was there, despite the tears that never fall.

I see my fathers wisdom and great ability to always hold the weight of the world on his shoulders.

I see the weight on mine.

I see the silent regret and worry held back.

I see my parents love and my sisters support.

I see my own self disappointment.

I see that woman in the reflection looking straight through me.