At night the demons I hide

come out to defy

To haunt and destroy..

Alone I lay awake in worry.

They play with my heart,

make it race and cry out.

Screw with my mind,

make me doubt every inch I feel inside.

Cover me in cold sweat.

Chills and feverish

until panic is all that's left.

"Run Run" they whisper

"You will never survive"

I struggle and fight to lock them back down inside.

Cover the taunts in locks and chains

bury them and

deny

deny

deny

-I am fine-

In the Mirror ..

I see my mother's beauty and strength.

I see my father's smart, kind blue eyes and stubborn jaw.

I see my dark thoughts and black circles beneath my eyes.

I see the stress behind a worried, crinkled brow.

I see the smile my mother gave, that was there, despite the tears that never fall.

I see my fathers wisdom and great ability to always hold the weight of the world on his shoulders.

I see the weight on mine.

I see the silent regret and worry held back.

I see my parents love and my sisters support.

I see my own self disappointment.

I see that woman in the reflection looking straight through me.